Journey through Foster care and adoption

Journey to completing our family

Scared January 10, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — ilovelucy72 @ 2:30 am
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So we are going to pick up Jack tomorrow evening. I am both excited and terrified at the same time. Why am I scared? I am scared because life as me and Ryan know it is going to change. Most definately for the better, but still change can be difficult at times. We have been used to doing what we want when we want. Used to coming home, watching television and playing with the dogs. Going shopping in missouri when we want too. Now we have a litte one that our lives will basically revolve around. We want to be the best foster parents that we can be. We want him to reach his highest potential and beyond. Up until this point we have only had to worry about ourselves, now we have a precious little one’s life in our hands.

Some of my worries are. “What if he doesn’t like me? Will he like being in our home? Are my parenting skills good enough?” Ever since I found out Jack was coming to our home I have not been able to sleep very well. So many thoughts keep running through my brain. What about daycare? school? What does he like, wear, eat? Good Lord I just need to stop and take a breather. I wonder if first time parents whether they be foster or biological feel this way? For the last several months I have waited for this moment, to be able to bring home a little boy or girl. All the waiting made me crazy. I wanted it to happen NOW. Well, now that its real, it just is scary and overwelming at the same time. So needless to say I wont be sleeping very well tonight.

I want to see him so bad. I want to have this waiting over with and have him home with us. Just last minute jitters I am having. I know its normal. I just need to stop over thinking. I do that compulsively. Well I guess the next time I write in this blog we will have another member added to our family:) Until next time……


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